Was i raped ?
I went to a co-worker's house yesterday to have some beers and hang out. We ended up hanging out for the majority of the afternoon until the evening. In that time I had four beers and 2 shots of vodka, I developed the spins and decided to lay in his bed with his permission.
(All of my co workers are close friends, i have slept in most of their beds ( male and female ) on nights of too much drinking or late movies. Our relationships are strictly platonic)
I have had many experiences with excessive amounts of alcohol and I have never blacked out, this night yesterday I did just that.
the last thing I remember was texting my roommate to tell her I was staying at my friend's house to sleep off my drunkenness.
My friend knows I have a boyfriend and that we are extremely dedicated to each other and I'm not interested in relationships outside of the one I'm in.
I woke up at 3 a.m. with a throbbing headache and couldn't fall back asleep, I woke him up being loud when I went to use the restroom when I came back he told me that we had had sex for a short amount of time he estimated 30 seconds, he explained that he woke up and it was happening. He said that he woke up inside of me, essentially.
He also said that I was provoking him with movements of my body towards him. ( while i was blacked out)...
Two oddly conflicting statements IMHO .
he stated that he came inside of me. He then asked me if i was mad at him which i replied to, no.
He provided me with the Plan B pill today. He apologized when he brought the pill to me I didn't say anything and he left.
Last night when this happened like I said, the last thing I remember was texting my roommate good night at 10pm then waking up at 3am. I have no memory of the time in between.
I woke up on the opposite side of the bed that i feel asleep on also.
I'm afraid to tell my boyfriend this happened because I feel like he will blame me for putting myself in this situation by being drunk and being in another man's bed.
Was i raped?
Is he lying or withholding details about what happened ?
Do i tell my boyfriend ?
I told him last night that I wasn't mad at him but today I feel incredibly emotional about the situation, I feel like I was wronged. I just want to know the truth and I don't know how to approach him about that without him lying further,
responses wanted please .
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