No one beleives me
I was adopted when I was 3 years old. Abandoned and neglected by my birth mother. I joined a family along with my biological sister. My adopted parents already had 2 children of their own. We were their first foster children and their last. I don't quite know when it started but my earliest memory was me laying on my bed getting spanked with a thick black belt that had 3 different latches and the holes to match by my mother. I still shiver when I think about it. There were times I had bruises from the "spankings". There were times I would be ashamed wondering if anyone could see them. It didn't stop there from what I could remember. It went on to marks on my face, and other cruel punishment. At such a young age and being abandoned by my own mom, I though this was normal and then I also thought I just want her to love me. As a teenager, I was quite rebellious for obvious reasons. I remember one point in time she found out I had snuck a bikini from a friend.. She made me put it on, told me I was a slut and then proceeded to cut it off of me with scissors. I remember standing there ashamed of being naked, and confused. The words and name calling didn't stop there but I would be here all day. When I was 15 yrs old, my adopted brothers friend sexually abused me.. That's how I lost my virginity. It was gone just like that. I told her.. she did nothing. When I found a boy who I thought I loved, I made my own decision and had sex with him. I got pregnant. She called me horrible things.. Was so angry. But why wasn't she that angry when I was sexually assaulted? In my adult life, I finally had the nerve to confront her of all the things that happened. Now, Im being told Im lying, Im crazy, I need medication, and that it was just regular discipline. Is it?
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