My rape was My fault
I was coerced into sex by my ex-boyfriend. At some he flipped me onto my stomach. I felt like his toy and I was so ashamed I began to cry. He stopped after a minute of my crying and told me that "Next time I should say no when I don't want sex"
The punch line?
I had said "I don't want to" 5 times that night.
Side note: I actually convinced myself that "I don't want to" was a form of saying no. I believed it was my fault and that had I said just plain "No" he surely would have stopped. I know better now.
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