I think I was raped
I hope I am posting in the right area.. I just don't know what to do at this point.
I was talking to this guy a while ago and he seemed nice at first and quickly turned mean and disrespectful towards me.. so I cut it off..
Now this past weekend I saw him out at a bar we both go to..I was really drunk and he was being really sweet so later in the night when he invited me to come over I decided to get dropped off there because I was drunk and wasn't thinking clearly.. everything was okay and we were having sex and it was fine he wanted to try anal so I let him a couple times but made him stop because it hurt..and he went back to vaginal sex.. then eventually he put it in my butt again and I told him it hurt .. he didn't stop and I kept looking back at him saying please stop and he just kept going and said he was about to finish. I started to cry and whimper in pain but he kept going it felt like forever before he finished.. and towards the end I just stopped even saying anything because I just wanted him to be done. And as soon as he finished i couldn't even look at him and I told him he had to drive me home.. I just can't stop thinking about it and I don't feel right about any of it...I just wish I pushed him off or yelled or something.
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