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I said no like five times to my husbands best friend but I didn’t stop him

My husband and I were camping at the lake with his best friend and others. We all were drinking and my husband and I went to bed and I had forgotten my phone by the lake. I begged my husband to please go get my phone and he told me no and I told him I didn't want to be the one to go get it because I was scared his friend would try something with me and he told me to knock that off and just go get it so I did and his friend tried to play with me and I told him no like five times but he just kept trying. I did not fight him off and he did it to me. I went back into the trailer and told my husband and he approached him but his friend said nothing happened that I was acting weird. This is not the first time I've had to fight this guy off and I have told my husband but he blocked it out. I can't believe I had no guts to say stop! I have mixed emotions because at first it felt good but my mind hated it. I feel totally empty inside now like a part of my soul is gone. Please help?



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One thought on “I said no like five times to my husbands best friend but I didn’t stop him

  • Admin says:

    This ‘friend’ is a predator. You are not safe with him. Equally, your husband’s refusal to acknowledge the criminal behaviour of his friend also puts you at risk. Please reach out to Rape Crisis for support. Because this is not your fault. And, you have done nothing wrong.

    These are the free phone numbers for the national rape crisis organisations in the UK. The phone lines are staffed by trained volunteers who are there to listen. You can also find local support services on their websites.

    Rape Crisis Scotland: http://www.rapecrisisscotland.org.uk
    Freephone 08088 01 03 02
    (Every day, 6pm to midnight)

    Rape Crisis England/ Wales: http://rapecrisis.org.uk
    Freephone 0808 802 9999
    (12-2.30pm and 7-9.30pm every day, and 3-5.30pm weekdays)