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I said no but still let it happen to get it over with

I went out with this guy to a hotel and we were just kissing and we began to undress and I went down on him but I didn't want to have sex after because I just didn't feel good about it and I said no to him when he was on top of me and I kept saying it and even cried but he still penetrated while I was crying but then after that I just let him do whatever because I wanted it over with but I wasn't enjoying myself I would even tell him it would hurt but he just went on until he finished and when I went home I went to bed and started crying and shivering alot but would it be considered rape if I went with him, didn't fight enough, and did what I did?


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  • Admin says:

    Consent is active, enthusiastic and ongoing. Going to a hotel room with a man is not consenting to any sexual activity. Kissing someone is not consent to having sex. You did not consent to what happened. That makes this rape.

    Rape Crisis Scotland has created a new campaign that shows all the ways people respond to trauma. This might help you recognise that your response to sexual assault and rape was normal. This is not your fault.

    These are the free phone numbers for the national rape crisis organisations in the UK. The phone lines are staffed by trained volunteers who are there to listen. You can also find local support services on their websites.

    Rape Crisis Scotland: http://www.rapecrisisscotland.org.uk
    Freephone 08088 01 03 02
    (Every day, 6pm to midnight)

    Rape Crisis England/ Wales: http://rapecrisis.org.uk
    Freephone 0808 802 9999
    (12-2.30pm and 7-9.30pm every day, and 3-5.30pm weekdays)