I don’t know if I was raped
Me and my ex boyfriend recently broke up about 2 months ago. We were dating for 3 years before that. ever since we broke up I was having a hard time and every time I tried to talk to him about it he ignored me. Eventually we became "friends" and were texting again and he invited me over one night. I got there and he kept trying to have sex with me and I realized once I got there I didn't want to because I knew I would regret it. I continuously said no I don't want to or get off but he wouldn't. He wasn't harming me or being agreesive in a bad way which confuses me to if this was rape. Eventually I just gave up and let him have sex with me because I knew he wouldn't give up. After we have sex we were just laying down and he wanted to do it again a little later on but this time I didn't say no because I already did it once why would I fight it again. I didn't wanna do it and I deeply regret it. I don't know if this counts as rape or me just giving in.
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