Gang Raped at 15-Fiancee Says I Wanted It
When I was 15 I was gang-raped by a group of gang members as an initiation for my boyfriend at the time. He told me we were going to a party and since I was only 15 my parents wouldn't allow me to go so I snuck out of the house. I met him and we went to the party.
When we get to "the party" I come to find out that the party was for me and his initiation into the gang. It all happened so fast. We walk in, he leaves cuz "he forgot something in the car" and then I'm held there, raped by at least 8 of them, over and over until I was able to get away. I left there naked and hurting, hiding in the bushes because they were after me. When I noticed they had given up on me I ran home, hiding everytime I saw headlights. I made it to my house and never told anybody until about a year and a half ago when I confided in my now fiancee.
He now uses it against me and says that nobody would ever let that happen and the only reason it did is because I wanted it to happen. I never got any counseling because as I said I never told anyone and the one person I actually opened up to now blames me for the whole incident. He says it happened because I come across as wanting that and that all men see me as doable. How is it that at 15 I wanted that and that I was and am doable? He can't tell me specifically what he means by that he just tells me that I'm the "2 o'clock whore", whatever that means.
I need help and advice because I have never talked to anyone about this and the only person I did confide in now blames me.
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