CPS drops case
As a victim on historic and long-term marital rape, resulting in severe PTSD, I took it to the police and there was a year long CPS investigation.
As a result the culprit, a family member and transplant patient, suffered a massive deterioration in health and ended up on life support. The family was told he would die and knew about my accusation, from him.
A few hours after I emailed the police to tell them and ask for the case to be dropped, they rang me to tell me the CPS said they were dropping the case due to discrepancies with a witness.
I was relieved that my family's pain would now stop and longed my attacker would survive to spare them pain. He did, he pulled through.
I am struggling with this. I shouldn't be but I am. I have to right to meet with the CPS to discuss why it was dropped but the subject is so traumatic.
I feel to blame for his collapse also, I am also hated, and because the CPS dropped the case, it looks like I made it up. I didn't.
I also have mental health problems and another reason they gave for dropping the case, was that they believed I wouldn't have coped. If he had not fallen ill, yes, I could have coped. They would have been surprised how strong I am.
My complaint has ended so badly. I don't want him charged again, because it was more than I could bare, but I am now back where I started. Unheard and ignored.
I have a mental health issue but have never taken leave of my senses. I'm not a china doll either. I don't think it is right that the CPS can factor in mental illness as a reason to drop a case. This makes vulnerable people 'rapable'.
Also, they drop cases when they can't be sure of secure prosecution. No rape case is that clear cut, they are always going to be hard to prove, but rape victims still deserve justice.
I feel I want to campaign in some way, about how the CPS and police handle victims of rape and victims with mental illness. It seems wrong to me that a rape case can be dropped like that, with witnesses, after the victim has put themselves through such an ordeal in reporting it. I gave a 4 hour video testimony that made me ill for weeks. Where is that now? In the bin?
I don't want to press charges again (in my heart I wish I could) but I am concerned for other victims and how the CPS takes ownership of their ordeal, doesn't communicate and then discards it. I feel concerned that mental illness can reduce someone's chance of justice.
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