Am I worrying about nothing?
I'm not to sure where to start but I have been with my partner for 7years he is my second ever sexual partner I don't remember much of being with my first even though we where together 5years most of it was a drunken haze as I was in a bad place at the time.
Anyway as I've said I've been with my current partner 7years (also been sober that long too). I've been friends with him for much longer than that and I am his first. He was very into porn before we started going out and as I wasn't ready to have sex for just over a month he used to get really snappy with me saying I should do it or I obviously feel nothing but being as stubborn as I am I didn't give in. Anyway when we did start a sexual relationship it was clear he expected a lot more than I had even heard of (being with him was the first time I'd ever heard of someone cumming over your face ect) I was quite naive to the world of porn ect and my ex never seemed to want anything like that. He also expected sex all the time which he found out wasn't going to happen.
Moving on we now have three children and obviously sex is the last thing on either of our minds half the time well maybe mine more than his but sometimes he will try to instigate sex and I won't want to but he will just pester and guilt trip me until I finally give in and I hate it. I know I'm probably just being selfish or a prude or something but it's really effecting the way I look at him. We get on great with everything else and he always seems to think in his words "I want it but am just playing hard to get". I also wake up some mornings with his hands down my pants even though I've said I don't like it. Don't get me wrong I do enjoy sex but I don't like being made to feel like I have to do it.
Reading this back it all sounds so stupid I know I'm probably making a big deal about nothing and at the end of the day it's my fault for giving in but after a hard day with the kids I just don't have the energy to keep saying no.
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