abuse (content note for rape)
I was married for 16 years.to a compulsive sleep rapist who would touch me.against my will and coerce.me.into doing more and more things that I didn't want to do. I got pregnant and only realised it was due to sleep rape about ten years after it happened. I used to joke I must have been asleep as I didn't remember having sex without using contraception! I used to cry as he had sex with me.but he didn't notice or care, I don't know which. He made me feel like a bad wife and like I was mad. He said I should go and get treatment for my anger, looking back its no wonder I was angry,I was being abused on an almost daily basis. He dulled like a small child of I didn't give.in to his demands. I was a naive 15 year old.when I got together with him. I only realised that it was rape and abuse recently. I feel dirty, used and disgusted that I allowed myself to be treated like that, and ashamed that most people think I was angry for no reason she I endured that abuse for twenty years.