Suffering Still (content note)
When I was 9, I was sexually abused. He gave me genital herpes. This wasn't diagnosed for 20 years (for other medical reasons).
I talk openly about the abuse I have suffered over the years, but I can't tell people about the herpes.
I am infected. Will be for life. He has scarred me. Literally. Everytime I get an outbreak, I am reminded of that time when I was 9. Looking up at the clouds, wondering when the hell he'd get off me.
People will never understand just how much my life and the crap I have been through has nearly killed me. Several times over. I still think about it.
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