my husband raped me in my sle
for nearly 3 years, I would wake up to my husband having sex with me. When I woke he'd try to coerce me, flatter me or just remind me of something I had once done that I was ashamed of and I would just back down and let him do it. Sometimes I would try and get away but then he'd threaten to go to the police about that thing I was ashamed of and I would back down immediately, too terrified to antagonise him. On many occasions he'd then get up and wash himself then call me a ' dirty bitch' a 'slag' or a 'whore ' before storming off downstairs or out of the house. He never raped me during the day was a godsend, because he couldn't. He had erectile dysfunction and could only get a full erection if he woke up with one and, when he did, he felt entitled to just do what he wanted as I was his wife. One day he went too far and raped me using force, not just threats or blackmail and I really struggled to get away but couldn't. The police investigation resulted in No Further Action 'due to lack of sufficient evidence but the police were amazing. They believed he did it and said it was better to get a NFA than an acquittal at court. Of course he denies everything.
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