Let down by the system
I was raped 9 years ago at a party. I had been fine drinking at bars with my friends, then one suggested a party at someone she vaguely knew house. When I got there I had probably half a drink and felt terrible. I was apparently out in a bedroom because I had passed out, my friend checked on me then went back to partying. I don't know how much time had passed before I woke up and a man was raping me. I pushed him off and he acted like I had wanted it and went to find my friend. We left immediately. I didn't report him until two days later, but at that point there was no evidence. It only took about a week for the police to phone me to say there were not pursuing it. I don't know how, I pointed out the house it had happened in, gave the name of the person, but nothing.
Flash forward to three years later, and I see on the news that this man and two of his friends had been arrested for gang rape and drugging Of another girl.
So I'm plagued by guilt for going to that party and what happened, plus I'm overwhelmed by guilt that I didn't do enough for them to believe me and he did it to someone else. I just can't stand it any more.
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