is it considered rape? (content note for graphic description)
I had fallen asleep early and woke up at 2 in the morning from many missed phone calls and text from the guy i use to have a thing with who also took my virginity. He called again so i answered to see why he was calling, he told me he was near my house ( even though i never told him where i live) and asked me to come meet him at the store and i repeatidly said no its too late but he insisted i come just to have a smoke with him and i told him fine we'll have a smoke but thats it then im going home and he said okay. When i got to the store i relized he was drunk but we had a smoke anyways, he asked to go on a walk, we walked down the street and then turned down an alley i thought nothing of it. We finally were behind some building and he started kissing me and i didnt really mind but then he pushed me down to the grown assuming i would suck his dick. I said i didn't want to but he put it in my mouth anyways and held the back of my head so i couldnt stop.. i stood up and said i wanted to go home but then he pulled my pants down and started to rape me i said stop many times, but i was so scared for some reason i didn't yell.. i pushed him away and said i was going home but he grabbed me bent me over and pressed me against the wall so i couldnt move while he fucked me but i ws silent because i was so scared so after it was all done and i was in such shock i walked out of the alley with him and he just kissed me and walked the other way as i was walking home i was crying and thought to myself he probably doesnt even think this was rape because i didnt say anything after, i never yelled, i could of fought harder and i think to myself im strong enough to of stopped it but i did tell him to stop so is it even rape? i havent spoken to him since and never reported it..
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