I was raped and my boyfriend is blaming me
A couple months ago I started drinking after having quit for a while. A couple weeks ago, I went to a party with a couple friends whom I wasn't very close with.
I over drank and blacked out while leaving the party to go into town with some male friends of mine (I am female). All night before memory went blank I was rejecting guys who were creeping on me.
So it was a surprise when I woke up in my bed, beside someone who was not my boyfriend. He told me we had slept together. I asked him to leave my house. Instantly I called my boyfriend and told him to come over. When he did, I told him we had to break up because I woke up beside someone else. He left immediately. We broke up, and then got back together a couple times and now it is completely over.
He doesn't believe that it is out of my control that it happened, and that 'I'm a strong girl who would have stopped that'....I feel like in a way I could have stopped it, but at the same time it's not my fault. I know that. He has trouble believing me because half a year ago I slept with someone else because I believed we were over due to him ignoring me for a little less than a week. In any kind of right mind I would have not let my rape happen....
I just need support. To know that it isn't my fault. And how I can reach my now ex boyfriend on that it was not in my control and it is not my fault?
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