I said no (content note)
When I was 16 I was seeing this guy. He was nice and really made me think he cared about me. After a few months he told me his mum wanted to meet me. Feeling wanted, I agreed.
After meeting up with him, we went to his house. His mum wasn't there but he said we could chill for a while until she got back. He brought me upstairs and we just played video games for about an hour.
He started kissing me. I was shy and this was the first time ever i had ever done anything with a guy so i didnt really know what to do. I was nervous and scared so i moved back. He was older than me, 19 at the time, when i moved back he pulled me back to him. i told him i wasn't ready for that but he laughed. he said that i should count myself lucky that he was even trying with me. I pushed off him and stood up. That's when he dragged me back and pushed me onto the bed, then climbed on top of me. I tried to push him off, I shouted and cried. He wouldn't listen and told me that I wanted it. After fighting back as hard as I could and screaming as loud as I could, he covered my mouth. I couldn't breathe. I remember his brother coming into the room, telling him to 'Keep her quite'. they argued for a few minutes while I still tried to struggle out of under him. He pressed harder over my mouth and nose then his brother pinned my arms down. the last few things I remember was not being able to breathe, trying so hard to fight back, trying to scream stop. before i passed out he took his hand away from my mouth and started taking my jeans off.
I woke up when his brother was buckling his belt. I don't know if he, if he done anything to me. I just remember flashes of the the guy I was seeings face on top of me, kissing me.
When I came around fully, I was alone in his room. my clothes were on the ground and I was bleeding. I don't remember everything, but I remember telling him to stop.
Because i don't remember everything, i didn't report them.
This happen two years ago. Last week I saw them in the place I work with a young girl, not much older than I was. I don't know what to do.
Please help me.
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