I don’t know what to do now.
The first time I had sex with him it was my choice. I was under the influence but we all were, so I thought everything was okay. I was uncomfortable with a lot of the things that happened but I didn't stop him and I didn't say anything. I think that's why he thought it was okay to do it all again without asking and without listening to me. We were drunk again this time. I said I wasn't going to have sex with him but he kept touching me. I started doing things with him thinking that if I just got him off he would leave me alone but that just made him try harder. I stopped and said no. I said I didn't want to do any of this. I said I didn't like how he was touching me. I said I just wanted to leave. He didn't let me. I should have tried harder to get away from him but I didn't want to make him mad and I knew my friends who were upstairs wouldn't believe me. No one would believe that I said no. He fucking hurt me and didn't care. He didn't listen and he didn't fucking care. I don't know how to tell anyone that this happened. I don't know how to tell my boyfriend that I let this happen. I didn't try hard enough to stop him. But I said no.
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