I cant tell my boyfriend that my friend assaulted me (content note)
I had planned a holiday to see a an online friend and meet in person, he knew i had a boyfriend and i had asked my boyfriends permission to visit my friend.
When i got there everything was fine, my friend was great and friendly. My first night there we had drinks and my friend kissed me, it was a peck and i laughed but did ask for no more of that behaviour. We kept drinking and then went to sleep. The next day we hung out at his friends house, and then ate dinner and again went to bed.
I woke to my friend with himself pressed into my back and then as i moved away he put himself between my legs. I pretended to be asleep in hopes that he would stop, but he didnt. He had sex with me and i layed there telling myself it would be over soon.
I left that morning and have since cut him out of my life.
I told my boyfriend that he kissed me, and pressed himself into my back but not the rest... i have been assaulted twice before and both times i have been told it was my fault.
If i tell my boyfriend, i know he will leave me because i kept it from him and lied that nothing had happened.
I have to keep this assault to myself and tell myself i can move forward with my life.
how can i forget this ever happened?
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